many times before...have i asked myself...would it be better to act at the centre of the stage in the spotlight...or hide behind the curtains amidst the shadows?
to shine in the spotlight would give me the opportunity to make a difference in this world...make it a better place...to speak out for what i strongly believe in...to protect everything which i think is right...to revel in the spotlight would provide me the chance to to something for humanity...to aid their cause...n finally, inspire others to do the same...
but to stay in the spotlight would also attract the attention of other people...n with them...a barrage of human characteristics...jealousy...hypocrites...opportunists...back stabbers...n some will have high expectations...to do great things...to succeed...
but to slink amidst the shadows would release me of these high expectations...allowing me to live a simple yet fulfilling life...living only for myself...n not for others...taking each day one step at a time...n experiencing my life to its fullest...
but to skunk in the darkness would also mean sacrificing everything that i uphold...my principles...it would mean not having to speak out against everything that i though is wrong...n allow the world to do as it liked...suffering...death...
yesterday's recent spate of events left me shattered...my principles have been jeopardized...n all because of staying in the spotlight...had i not done so...things would have turned out differently...i would not be feeling so bad right now...i would not hate myself right now or my conscience...n i would not hate everyone in this fucked up world for being so screwed up...
so now...i'm going to change...i shall no longer be at the center of attraction...but i shall fade into obscurity...let the everyone have high expectations of another...let that person live with the high expectations placed on him...n sacrifice his own principles...but give me back my simple life...with my principles that i hold on to firmly...although i condemn myself to oblivion.
to shine in the spotlight would give me the opportunity to make a difference in this world...make it a better place...to speak out for what i strongly believe in...to protect everything which i think is right...to revel in the spotlight would provide me the chance to to something for humanity...to aid their cause...n finally, inspire others to do the same...
but to stay in the spotlight would also attract the attention of other people...n with them...a barrage of human characteristics...jealousy...hypocrites...opportunists...back stabbers...n some will have high expectations...to do great things...to succeed...
but to slink amidst the shadows would release me of these high expectations...allowing me to live a simple yet fulfilling life...living only for myself...n not for others...taking each day one step at a time...n experiencing my life to its fullest...
but to skunk in the darkness would also mean sacrificing everything that i uphold...my principles...it would mean not having to speak out against everything that i though is wrong...n allow the world to do as it liked...suffering...death...
yesterday's recent spate of events left me shattered...my principles have been jeopardized...n all because of staying in the spotlight...had i not done so...things would have turned out differently...i would not be feeling so bad right now...i would not hate myself right now or my conscience...n i would not hate everyone in this fucked up world for being so screwed up...
so now...i'm going to change...i shall no longer be at the center of attraction...but i shall fade into obscurity...let the everyone have high expectations of another...let that person live with the high expectations placed on him...n sacrifice his own principles...but give me back my simple life...with my principles that i hold on to firmly...although i condemn myself to oblivion.
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